因为在神没有一件事是不可能的

God is teaching me loads. It seems that the more I learn the harder it becomes to follow God. I suppose it makes sense, but I always thought following God would get easier with time. I'm just seeing how utterly worthless I am without Christ. I often want to give up and do my own thing, but I just can't justify it. I have all this knowledge of who God is and to do my own thing would be totally throwing Christ's sacrifice in His face. Making His call on my life useless. I guess I always thought following God would be more fun. All this loving others completely, forsaking everything to follow Christ, and being a servant of all sounds great on paper. But when it comes to putting it into practice it's not any fun at all. I'm so stupidly selfish. I hate it.

So, I don't know. Things are crazy. I can't figure it out.